things that helped me get out of a rut

- time: waiting for it to pass was the only way. I needed to go through it to come out the other way and see things in a different light.

- cleaning: cleaning something really well (like the bathtub) helps with that lost sense of accomplishment.

- reading: i read one book this week. short, but a book nonetheless, which took my mind off things. it helped.

- the gym: seems obvious, but hitting the gym four times a week is normally what i need for my mind to calm down.

- writing what is in my head to get it out of the way: a stream of conscious things that make me guilty or anxious, from my head and into paper.