cosmology

what? you think i'm scared? well, no, i guess i'm not scared i guess it's just moving-
that suddenly life works like the railways and goes back and forth
carrying everyone i had sworn to leave behind
except for the two times i though i had seen the doors close...

no, i don't think i'd call it fear,
fear doesn't keep you moving this long
without killing something out of you:
what has died and lost its cause?

   they have been saying
   i should ask for forgiveness
  for advice (and take it)

well the universe... it's wise
believe me i know what i am saying
i have seen infinity beyond my eyes

records to listen to at three am without killing yourself in between

• fonso - zugzwang
• the black keys - brothers
• king krule - the ooz
• modest mouse - the lonesome crowded west
• thundercat - drunk
• pyramides - vacíos y variables
• luca bocci - ahora
• soda stereo - signos
• blood orange - coastal grooves
• frank ocean - nostalgia, ultra.
• speedy ortiz - foil deer
• the shins - wincing the night away
• mac demarco - rock and roll night club
• blur - blur
• the velvet underground - loaded
• alabama shakes - sound & color
• placebo - sleeping with ghosts
• jeff buckley - grace
• the smiths - hatful of hollow
• wilco - yankee hotel foxtrot
• unknown mortal orchestra - multi-love
• angelo badalamenti - soundtrack from twin peaks
• the cure - the head on the door
• modest mouse - too many fiestas for rueben/cowboy dan (EP)
• el mató a un policía motorizado - el nuevo magnetismo
• bleachers - gone now

blood

don’t you feel that sometimes words pour out like wounds?
maybe i am, who knows.
maybe i am bleeding.
but this year this time has been particular
for a lack of blood
and the thirst for it
i can’t seem to bleed enough—
this might be fine.

i can’t be happy all the time.
i guess some day i will be fine.