bcms

we both try so hard
to win and
we always lose but
it's not like we lost 
our lives or something
and it's so crazy to think
we are so tied
that when I lose
you lose
when I win
you win
wherever I go
you are there


we are always
proving the same point

spotlight

why do I have to talk so much?
why do trust the wrong hands
wrong faces
wrong people?

why do I feel the constant need to
make everyone know about
how I feel inside?
I wish I could shut up

and stop craving attention

(but
it's like
once you have it
you can't let it go)

comment found in my IGCSE Env. Management book

I'm so tired and helpless. I cannot help but think this is a mere obligation and not what I asked for. I'm interested in things I do not know about. I'm writing someone else's words, not mine. I can always pretend I stole somebody else's idea and it's completely okay