ocean within

i want to leave this body
replace it with water instead.
fill up the concavity weary of touch.
i have never kissed more strangers
and i never felt stranger to myself.
never have i ever felt so detached aswell.
i want to leave this hole in your bed
heavy, sinking in
so there's someone else you can remember
when you realize nothing,
other than you, 
has gone wrong.
i'll let you go and defeated,
i'll push myself upwards
sew back my heart
swallow the pill
it's a headstart.
get ready for the show, son.
get ready for me. on me. with me.
i'm draining and changing,
filling up; overwhelming,
but i've for the power of the seven seas,
and i'll harness the madness of the ocean within.