expectations

why do i feel like i am missing something?
it's like i have become tangled in
this mess of guts and dust for no reason
and everyone's moving on.

why do i feel like i am missing something?
it feels hard when you let your friends go,
but even harder when those you cherished
leave you first.

why do i feel like i am missing something?
life is a lot different from what it was back then, it's true
but i can't seem to find a stable phase
i can't seem to find a cure for
restlessness in this peaceful life.

(clean me up from all
remains of white noise.)

why do i feel like i am missing something?
whithering away,
in a wheel, in the wind,
looks all the same to me.

why do i feel like i am missing something?
probably because i have hit
the finishing line
                          a long,
                                     long time ago.