say perhaps to drugs

and then she says, 
i have to quit smoking.
and then she says,
she's disappointed in me.
and then she says,
she can't imagine going back.
but she never says:
   "i'm weak, 
    i'm sick,
              i'm following tides because i'm tired"

and then she says,
she's in rage.
maybe i am sick.
maybe i am following tides
because i'm tired.

i wonder who is,
i wonder who is.