ugh/regret

sorry
I am sorry 
for all the things I haven't done
for taking things too far
for overreacting over the end
for thinking you were an exception
I don't know what was going on that afternoon
but I just
the memory of your smile
makes me wonder every night
if I what I did was right.
you looked so proud.
now you just look like
you want me to shut up.
but then again you don't
I don't get it I don't get it
what's going on between us?
who are you?
you know what makes me sleepless?
the things I said to you
nothing else
not even regret
I don't have regrets
that are not for you
that sucks
I love you so much
shit