years of
being forgotten
everytime I went back
to a place
and because of
my nomad
nature
I learnt
how to
disappear.
it's funny
because I can
sense
the breaking point
in any relationships
I have.
I can't accept
breaking apart from
things,
and if I do
I do it abruptly
and I hurt
everyone.
and I gain
enemies.
and everyone
is disappointed
in my inconsistencies.
so am I,
believe me.
after
so many loved ones
I left behind
I sense
goodbye handshakes
and heart breaking
speeches and
hugs which
will never be the same.
life is always
changing
around me
and if I had
to live with
my past
I would be
dead already.
that's why
I disappear
from resposibilities
and maybe
that's also why
I can't
apologize.