reconnecting

these days were favourable for a couple of reasons:

system re-wired.

rain washed away misery.

the cold whiplashed my self-esteem.

i learnt that being alone

and being lonely

do not correlate.

i was lonely with people for months.

i stabilize and try again

to recompose the structure that makes me

here we are.

eloquently placed pieces of furniture,

cleverly detailed make up.

scars, scarves, scarcity of space.

i don't feel your urge for long.

you come back, yes;

but it's not lonely...

thanks, bud.

i learnt a lot from you.

plans!

pre-meditation

pre-planning

care

care for caring

it doesn't work for me

I think quit before i could even begin

and yet i spontaneously

found how fast my heartbeat can race

in the thrill of the thunderstorm

over us the skies were gray

but i've got my shoes and i've got my hair

and it still behaves like a mane

but i don't care

i wish i could quit everything else but it wouldn't be fair

i should be sleeping and 

maybe i should be planning

but you know me,

(well no, you don't)

i work better under pressure