light the torch

maybe if I
hadn't been so
dependant
and needy for
attention when I was
at my weakest
I wouldn't have
let you scar me
so bad.
you probably
remember how
you opened up to me,
well let me tell you
your carcass broke and
I know who you are,
behind that darkness
you pretend so well
you're the weakest
fakest
person I've ever known

and I loved you anyway
I admired you anyway
but took the chance
and didn't follow you
anywhere

sowing season

was losing all my friends
was losing some to drinking
some to driving
was losing all my friends
but I got them back