the fatal nature of seasickness

 does the black moon help you reconnect with your closest self?
have you closed your eyes lately,  and felt
a never-ending coming and going
of seasickness
that can only be explained
by the fast movement of the seasons?
I’ve tried to explain it to myself:
i’ve meditated in place
sitting down
down on my chest
legs out front
on my feet:
      nothing.
there’s no stopping what’s near me
if i open my eyes big enough, maybe i’ll catch a glimpse
familiar sweetness, a mossy rock in my childhood heart
even the winds of trade made of salt and bones
will feel like new momentum 
renewed enthusiasm
enough to keep me going 
for like, what, 20 more years?