she said, "you have only wasted your life!"*
i looked up and never for a second doubted she was right
but was she bound to treason?
i couldn't tell by the looks in someone elses' eyes;
for a second i'd thought i'd lose her forever!
then the tides washed me in,
the rain thought me clear
the ending of the roads kept me quiet
and the warm summer breeze at night
finally awoke my spirit.
i slept all night i think
without the nightmares seeping in.
he said he couldn't.
i wondered what happened those hours
i was away.
*oscar wilde, roses and rue