do you know how hard it was? how hard it has been? like a shipwreck. i had to find compliance in things i thought buried. i wasn't really sure of what i was doing most of the time, trying to check your timespans and timelines in the hopes that i could catch a glimpse of you watching me. but most times i just got tired and it was useless, for messages sent were answered but not the prayers. not the prayers. an empty stomach followed a headache and i guess this is time for me to find a way out of the life that has been dragging me into this.