am i still sad? maybe. i don't know. i guess i've had too much wine already and no one here's oughta know. i can't pay my bills, let me tell you. i haven't eaten in a while. i have been working a lot but i still struggle to focus. i tend to lose grip on conversation after a while and easily i shut down. is this me? i can't seriously tell. maybe it's me. it's the me i've never known. the one that disconnects and tries to improve. do i still get pains in my chest when i can't get to rest peacefully? i do. why lie? i can't lie anymore. it's useless. playing the game has only made me more miserable. what about you? have you lost your mind too?