another round for the boys

feels like the blacking out act
of my own skin
is my safest choice in this war

for no reason i'm bound to cry
i'm losing for someone's touch
i'm losing myself for demons unhatched

will i drown inside
the pains in my chest?
will i relieve the trust in this old bed?

can i afford to break apart,
when the top of my life
doesn't seem so far?

tell me cause i'm
and nothing is stopping me now