fresh start

how much does it take
to reinvent the self?
to wipe away all efforts 
start again?
does it take courage,
to change for what one
is not?
is it true that there's no
way you can hide what you are
for a long time?
because i do really wish
i could start over
i guess we've got our mistakes
we want to forget.
i tell myself i won't
i won't do this again
(i won't blind myself 
with drinks tonight)
(i won't text him
even if he breaks my heart)
i swear i will be a good person.