for the past several weeks I've been living on a bare minimum of food, eating at weird hours, skipping breakfast, lunch, and sometimes even dinner. I fill the void with copious amounts of coffee and study. I don't remember much about how I used to feel. I don't think I feel much. I barely sleep, I fucked up my sleeping pattern, I lose weight, I gain it. I don't really know how to feel. I think I'm failing all the time. imagine living life like this. it'd destruct me.