blind sides

why am I so
damned intelligent
if I can't even
place my feelings right

the arrogance
coexisting inside me
takes over the little
sensitive parts I had left.

if I just didn't 
feel the need
to be the best
all the damn time

I'd care
not even as half
as much as I
care now.

about anything at all.
you, exams,
your friends,
or my lovers.

or maybe the people
I should care about:
like my friends
my family

and my cat.