phone

and I call her on the phone
she asks me how I have been
so far
like 'how are you, emotionally?'

and outside the sun sets
I look out the window and sigh
like
'yeah, I'm okay'

'I'm just a little stressed'

but how can I say

I'm not okay
I'm worse than before
I think I'm losing everything
leaving it all


no, I don't think I'm okay
but maybe it's me in a cage
it's just the mere perception
I hang onto

like maybe it's just a phase
or a feeling
but I can't wash it away

and oh yeah by the way
I'm not sleeping well
I'm having nightmares again

'I guess
I'm just stressed,
but the rest
is well'