cranky. jittery.
I'm done with all of it.
I back hurts
my chest delivers more spasms
than it should
and my neck looks twisted
I don't sleep
I dream
I dream so lucid, so loud
it's so hard to find peace
I wake up when I shouldn't
I wake up and get confused
I wake up, I'm not awake
I'm as dead as I was hours ago
it's a nightmare
night after night
a struggle
to keep up
I can't keep up with
the dreams, the dizziness,
the spasms,
the pain.
specially the pain.
I sleep.
I don't rest.