a list

I can't get to sleep right
I can't get any comfort
or security that when I wake up
things will stand still

I can't sleep at night
so I make a list
of things I do to
be at ease

but it doesn't work
I try sleep for hours
but it just won't work
and I'm beyond exahusted

of this life,
me,
this world,
this family,
work,
study,
this appointments,
this government,
this boy,
these dreams.


they
never
stop
filling
up.