you know what actually feels weird?
to be in love.
well i don't know if it's love
but it's falling.
it's like falling into a mushy type of mud
and something dirty but still smells nice
maybe like falling into a bowl of rice, i don't know
because i never felt the thrill
of having somebody ask about the nightmares
for more than two days.
you never asked about me
about her
about anything,
you just never cared.
how come i always gave my all? i wonder
i still have so much more to give
the wrecks
you've grown on me,
straddling like deadly disease
you've been creeping up my nerves
and rest your venom on my chest
then you bite and puncture the neck
that so many times you could have called a
home
but who is she, who am i,
and most importantly, who are you?
you sit there and pretend to care,
your mouth moves with quiet warnings
and i tell myself,
it's not in the eyes
it's in the mouth
it's in the lips
it's the poison of his kiss
that's what's keeping you hooked
and can't let me go,
only when my bones shake under the burden
of being alive,
because boy do i know that weight
better than you.
better than your sleeping pills.
better than anything you've ever said,
i know the pain.
don't act as if you could ever
even
fathom
the pain
straddling like deadly disease
you've been creeping up my nerves
and rest your venom on my chest
then you bite and puncture the neck
that so many times you could have called a
home
but who is she, who am i,
and most importantly, who are you?
you sit there and pretend to care,
your mouth moves with quiet warnings
and i tell myself,
it's not in the eyes
it's in the mouth
it's in the lips
it's the poison of his kiss
that's what's keeping you hooked
and can't let me go,
only when my bones shake under the burden
of being alive,
because boy do i know that weight
better than you.
better than your sleeping pills.
better than anything you've ever said,
i know the pain.
don't act as if you could ever
even
fathom
the pain