delays

i will start up the fire
it burns my eyelids wide open
i am nothing yet i burn
and i will bleed
for days and all the bullets shoot
right past behind me
i am scared
to death
and i should not fear death
as i have seen it with
my own two eyes,
i should not be offended by it.
instead i worry about how insignificant
connectivity can make us feel.
i feel so lost in you
when i wake to two hundred feelings
and i fall asleep to nothing.
i'll learn, eventually i will
and i'll stop the burning fires
that have caused so much damage in me

it's been raining in the desert

i'm retracing our steps,

but everything's changed,

everything's changing

the radio still fails

the heart still skips a beat

the sofa's broken and it always will be

it's been raining in the desert for days.

i retrace our steps

i'm happy to say

you're not there

you're not there anymore

and i could learn how to heal

i still feel your rush against my skin

or your smell in my hair

but these are not my memories

i've peeled them off like new skin

everyone asks about you,

you're gone with the sea

i'm gone in the wind

with the blink of an eye

i travel 900 miles

and i am no longer who i used to be