i'm still not happy. like, i thought i was gonna be happy after seeing him or something but i'm not.i'm not happy. i wasn't happy when i arrived, i wasn't happy while i was there, and not happy now that i left him. and i don't know why and i hate this because i wanna be happy with him, because he's nice and i like him and we have fun... but there's just something off that i just don't like.... and if i'm not happy then what's the point? right?