i used to break walls and
sometimes bleed.
I look in mirrors;
I can't see
all I can appreciate
is tight skin
red face
tired eyes
I'd jolt for nothing
you would look at me
puzzled and bewildered
mostly, scared
because I saw
nightmares full of bugs
and people
crashing into cars
it's not there
it's not there
I never tell people
I never stay
let's just run away
I'm too tired
of thinking straight
where's my blanket?
if only
medicine
could make my
life better