there's a person I know (I don't want to call her a friend anymore) that lives for the internet performance. she is consistently and knowingly filling her self up with bullshit. she tries to be as radical and liberal as she can be on her social media, but the moment you're not aligned to what seem to be her outward values she looks at you like you're trash. and I can see through that, too. she doesn't align with my values, either. I think she's too harsh on everyone else even if she says she's not, and most importantly, I don't really think her ulterior motives are good. I don't think she's radicalizing her thoughts because that's what she feels, it's because she knows that's the right way to be if you want people to never be mad at you.
what stinks is that we've tried to be friends, consistently over the span of 20 years, and that's been impossible for me. I can't trust her even if I tried. I trusted her for a brief span of two years and I was really comfortable with her but suddenly she changed, and refused to tell me what was wrong. pretended everything was fine but continued her discourse towards me filled with jealousy and raised eyebrows, when in reality I was just trying to show her who I was. I guess we aren't compatible but my friend group is also tied to her, and I've chosen to step away. she can keep them.